I can say I hope it will be worth what I give up

If I could stand up mean for the things that I believe.

You’ve applied the pressure, to have me crystallised,

And you’ve got the faith, that I could bring paradise.

It’s so sad. What was so beautiful and transcendent is now nothing but faded memories, getting dimmer by the day. I don’t want it to ever leave me. I want to go back to that life. It was other-worldly. It was everything I believed life should be about. And as it fades away, all that’s left are vague recollections. The feelings vanish.